The vault

November 8, 2006 at 7:52 pm 6 comments

Uncomfortable silence lately. The kind of silence that doesn’t know whether to scream truth in the darkest night to the few who might be listening, or clam up and preserve what little I understand within a vault of purposeful quiet. If it weren’t for you few but very loyal and supportive readers, I might even let the blog go into oblivion. And I’ve been considering quitting my stint as Friday guest editor over at Strike the Root.

Why? It’s not despair, not hopelessness – although with the increasingly oppressive news of late, it is partly fear. It is partly writer’s block, since I haven’t had a clear idea of what to write lately. But it’s more that concept of the vault – of sensing the need to take the ideas underground and only reveal them to those who seem to be ready for the knowledge. Mainly so I won’t give away strategy – or energy – to the enemy.

I think it’s come time to back away from public view, to become like witches during the Inquisition – for the sake of the future, those who see and know must hide the extent of their insight and knowledge.

I keep thinking of that quote from The Fountainhead, when Ayn Rand is describing Howard Roark’s taciturnity and the resentment it evoked in others: “Things locked in vaults are valuable…men did not care to feel that.”

Is this really me, talking about having an enemy? This isn’t my way. Yet the enemy exists – and it’s (or they’re) the arch-enemy of free and intelligent human beings. And I don’t know how to prepare for the struggles I see coming closer each day now.

But, as I said, this isn’t a question of despair. In fact, my life at school lately has brought unexpected and very welcome blessings, in the form of people who see and resist the encroachments of the State. And they are working quietly and courageously, as a sort of non-secretive underground network, to open the eyes of others whenever possible. They’re succeeding, too – what a joy to behold when that occurs, one soul at a time, as it must.

Maybe it’s because of life being so good and fulfilling lately, that I want to hold it as sacred and inviolate.

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Entry filed under: Outlawry, Writer's Life.

Intermezzo Holy Confucius, Batman…

6 Comments Add your own

  • 1. PintofStout  |  November 9, 2006 at 9:58 am

    Good feelings and joy are untouchable to the state; they can only take that from you if you let them.

    I have many selfish reasons for hoping you don’t stop writing (or editing STR), but ultimately I think you have to write for yourself. Best of luck, and keep on that novel!

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  • 2. dare2bfree  |  November 9, 2006 at 2:51 pm

    I understand how you feel. I’ve been wanting to do that some myself – kinda bring things home and keep them there for a while. But it seems in my case that circumstances are getting ready to throw me out into the public eye and I’m not sure that I’m ready for that. Some of me says I am, and some of me says that I’m not.

    Go with the blessings – your heart knows what is best for you and what you should do. If that means taking yourself out of the public eye, so be it. Everyone who fights TPTB has to do so in their own way and the way that works best for them. We’re most effective that way.

    Good luck with the book – happy thoughts and vibes going out to you πŸ™‚

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  • 3. Taran Jordan  |  November 9, 2006 at 3:42 pm

    Pint, thanks for your input and all the good vibes you always send. You’re right, my attitude – spirit, if you will – is the one thing they can’t control. πŸ™‚

    Dare, nice to see you here! I was reading your blog recently and tried to comment, but the darn internet connection here wasn’t playing nice. I’ll have to get back and try again. Thanks to you too for the sisterly chat.

    Y’all rock, you know that? πŸ˜€

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  • 4. Daylan  |  November 10, 2006 at 12:52 am

    Thank you for all that you have shared with us.

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  • 5. Keith and stuff  |  November 10, 2006 at 2:35 am

    I notice that you recently posed a couple news items about the FSP on strike the root. I thank you for that. While freedom is quickly going away in America, there are people doing great things in NH. NH is the state where the fight for freedom will be fought and telling other people about the movement will improve the chances of freedom winning in at least 1 place in the world.

    Thanks again.

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  • 6. Taran Jordan  |  November 10, 2006 at 8:20 am

    Keith and stuff – You’re very welcome. I wish the free-state and free-county projects well and I applaud you folks’ courage and energy!

    Daylan – You’re very welcome too! Boy, with comments like these, I might just have to keep blogging and STR editing after all. πŸ˜€

    Thank you both for stopping by! Reading your thoughts has been a great way to begin my Friday. Hope your day is lovely as well.

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